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2007-11-13T11:05:00.000+08:00

I've SHIFTED!!

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Do drop by and give me comments* LOVE.

2007-11-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

Before the night ends, I wanna say... I still LOVE you*

Happy 73rd month-niversary sweet<3

On a side note, I love this dress~

the sad thing is, they've run out of small sizes.. big BOO!

Good night everybody. More updates soon >>>

2007-11-01T00:53:00.001+08:00

It's the start of November! Cheers everyone~ it's gonna be a good month! I can feel it. Nights*

2007-10-29T09:07:00.000+08:00

After all the bim-bam-bom and the zim-zam-zoms happening, I'm back to add some colours in my blog. I'm glad we're starting to move out from that trap and to embrace a better tomorrow.

I know this came abit too late but yes, Happy Birthday Mr.Shatish. Grow up la! Haha*

Then, just last thursday, went over to Mr.Cookie.'s place before we drove down to Holland V to meet the Royalties, Tok and Travis. Vel couldn't join because she had a date with her friend. Neverminds, cos' she managed to drop by for a while. Headed over to Coldrock and tried the ice cream which I felt was so-so. The company was better I guess. We snapped and laughed so hard at Tok's retarded acts. Heh*

Jiaying and Xiuhui are going to Taiwan AGAIN! Enjoy yourself girls and do remember to come back in time for my big day alrights? =) Meet up before you leave? Yes?

I love this pic*

Candids*

IBS on Friday and we went to school with formal wear. I was relieved when the tutor told us that we don't have to wear formal for every tutorial unlike the other class. I think they even have to wear a blazer. I guess we are just lucky. Anyways, school was boring so we decided to do some snaps snaps.

Last weekend, Mr.Cookie. and I went over to sentosa for some sunshine loving, like FINALLY. Hah* the weather was good, not too hot for my liking. Saw a couple of familiar faces there. Ate my fave Amos cookies and definitely a nice hot convo with Mr.Cookie. It's surprising when we left, the toilet was not at all crowded. This time, I finished before Mr.Cookie. =)

After Sentosa, met up the Usuals and watched Superbad. Weird show but yeah, we did it. Dinner after movie and it was home sweet home. Was dead tired and fell asleep almost immediately.

And on Sunday, had an early birthday celebration for Dad at the Revolving Restaurant. Food and service was good. I guessed we all enjoyed it. Bought a watch for him this year. Hope he likes it.

Okay. Enough updates? Yes! I better get dressed and prepare for school now. Bye loves!

P/S: I'm glad things are a little back to normal. I feel so happy and blessed now. Thanks for everything, ANYONE who made this happen!

2007-10-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Now I see some light.

Will be back with more updates and colourful pictures. Watch this space! =)

2007-10-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

All the doubts and the fears
The pain and the tears

I see them fading
and watch them ending

It's a new beginning

Love

/edit 1207am: I spoke too soon. All was just make-believes. I was naive, way too naive*

2007-10-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

It hit me real hard and it was NEVER so hard! =(

2007-10-18T13:25:00.001+08:00

Should I stay or should I go?

2007-10-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

I had a lousy day.

First day in school.
Lecture was long and draggy.
Someone in the lecture hall knocked over my drink, dirtied the carpeted floor and DIDN'T apologise (she didn't even realise it).
Argued with an idiotic friend.
Mum flared up at me.

I need a peaceful life.

I need a getaway.

I need to be ALONE.

2007-10-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

Now that I see the holidays are almost coming to an end, it brought me thinking whether I had enjoyed it to the fullest. I'm glad that I did take time out to meeting friends I haven't seen for years. But then again, this holiday was a rocky ride for me as I had my share of laughter and tears.

Nuff' said. I realised I have yet to post up many overdued, expired pictures taken 8328746282782 months ago. So, while waiting to go for Shatish's birthday bbq, I shall put them all up. Thus, a long entry ahead.

First up, poly steamboat. The HR people decided to have a pre-semester class outing. Yup, you've guessed it right - bowling, deafy, roberto, alan and yours truly have enrolled into the same class for the next coming semester. Somehow, project group is already formed. Hopefully everything turns out fine and smooth. Visited yuki-yaki, which is somehow my first time there. The food is cheap and good. I enjoyed the part where we took turns to fry eggs on that teppanyaki - so fun!!! Let's do this again soon shall we?

Deaf donkey - the very naughty one

The HR members

Next, met up with nurul dearest and exuan. It's been so long since the 3 of us sat down together to have a meal and have talks about life yes? Somehow, I feel that we have all grown up. The mindsets and the perceptions on certain life issues that we've talked about felt so different from the talks we had when we were back in JC, where all we talked about were things like harry pottie and ronnie! I hope we don't have to wait for another 2 years before the next meet up. Heh*

Following that, steamboat at Zihao's (Mr.Cookie's. primary school's classmate) place. Yes, I have a crazy love for steamboat. Don't ask why, I just do. This time round, the guys did most of the preparation - grocery shopping, dishing out the food and bandung - all done by them. And obviously, food was of over-dosage. Guys just don't know how to estimate and get the right amount of food. Heh* Played with Zihao's pup and it was so freaking cute. I don't know when I had such sudden liking for fury animals but the pup's really adorable - makes me want to have one for myself. But then again, I will never want to have a cat ever- it's THAT phobic la.

Golden couple*

And just yesterday, we celebrated our 6th years' anniversary. Yes, it's that long. Had sushi for dinner and the teppanyaki was good. A pity that my stomach didn't work to its fullest, I didn't eat much. Haix* Never mind, we'll have sushi again, alrights?

Mr. Cookie. loves sushi

So do I*

Aside from sushi, I wanna do a shout-out to Mr.Cookie. Despite the recent ups and downs, it made me realised that all these can only bring us closer. I don't know what I can say but to thank you for always tolerating my nasty temper. I know sometimes I do get overboard and neglect your feelings, but deep down in my heart, you know that there's only space for you. There may be many obstacles ahead of us but trust me, we'll get through every single one of them together. You'll always have me around. Do continue to have faith in this relationship. It's gonna work!!!

I love you* Happy 6 years and cheers to eternity!!

2007-09-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

Is it true that I can only see darkness now?

2007-09-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

People always claim that people closest to them or rather loved ones are usually the strongest pillars of support. Somehow sometimes, this phenomenon may not be realistic. Instead of giving support, they become the roadblocks obstracting the paths of success and happiness. Many a time, we do things not to please ourself but more for the sake of the people around us. We always try to make life pleasant for others but what do we achieve at the end of the day?

I'm getting disappointed and tired out of all these. Please stop adding stress to my life. Grant me some deserved happiness. I will be very thankful.

2007-09-18T19:10:00.000+08:00

Today's enrolment day and it was downright chaotic. We had crazily lagging servers and alot of confusion. Nonetheless, the good happened. I see a real pleasant semester ahead, together with deafy and bowling, alan and robert. Somehow, the future seems much brighter. I don't know why but I can't wait for school to begin.

I am a happy girl now!

2007-09-17T14:11:00.000+08:00

I gotta admit that I have a bad habit of lumping my week's events into 1 long, draggy entry. Nonetheless, I had another good week.

Meeting up with the Royalties (minus Vel* cos' she wasn't feeling well) was goodie-good! We caught up with each other, had our regular laughing dosages, ate sushi and desserts. It was after so long that I finally met up with them and I hafta say I've missed them ohsomuch! More meetups please and this time, hopefully with Vel* darling.

And we had again, another prawning session with the Usuals at Taman Jurong. The catch was better this time round and we even had free prawns *hiak hiak* Yours truly broke the record with 2 prawns at the end of the day. And what's a prawning session without outdoor cooking. Bought the essentials and *poof*, tasssty prawns.

Woke up hours later for tuition and Haji Lane with Mr. Cookie. The things are nice but pretty over-priced. I give it 3 out of 5 stars.

Was invited to Sigmund's 21st yesterday at Northvale and overall, the affair was quite a pleasant one I'd have to say. The food was good, the company was better. Caught up with many secondary friends. Saw Miss Seow and her little baby girl. Miss Mari Chan was there with her spouse too. After the party, went for a drink with Eileen, Dennis, Yixuan and LingJun. Had a pretty good chat. And what's a party without pictures? There you go and if any guy were to see this, sorry that we had to keep getting you guys to become photographers *grins*

The one I <3 so much

15 years and going strong*

Dennis - e one ALWAYS so tolerant to my bullying acts - heh*

I don't know why but I kind of like this pic*

We grew up together*

Calvin - looking good and mucho*

Me and the goofballs' girls

That was my week and I see another good week coming. More meetups with my girlies* So much loving around! I like... That's all for now. Good day to all*

P/S: Today's my 2nd day of fasting. Heh*

2007-09-11T12:09:00.000+08:00

Warning: Very long and image intensive entry ahead.

The weekend has been fantabulous with the loves.

Made a trip down to the Singapore Zoo on Friday morning, with of course, Mr. Cookie. The experience was unforgettable cos' I had always wanted him to bring me to the zoo, just the 2 of us, strolling along the animals' exhibits.

The moment we stepped into the Zoo, we caught sight of that gigantic fish that Willie and Shatish were crazy over. It was really golden, not like Shatish's which is black *grins*

And as we move further, Mr.Cookie. decided to take a snap with what I call the Singapore's Chipmunk.

And thanks to Mr.Cookie, I had my take with many different animals in the zoo. These are what I call Classics.

And the one that I felt the most unforgettable was this.

Besides that, we went to the different animal shows and I personally like the polar bear and the elephants most. The polar bear is really huge and clumsy, yet, very brilliant. It knows the fact that only the watermelon flesh is edible and it skillfully caught the live fish and waved it at the audience. The elephants are really entertaining and smart as well. The part where they tried to fly like how dumbos do, swinging hard on their long thick trunks, made the show really fun.

The Zoo also gave Mr. Cookie. the opportunity to go on a tribal tour. Look at him! I guess he thought he was in Survivor. Ha ha

We moved on and saw a cluster of pink flamingoes. Look at their gorgeous pinkish glow.

And that's about all. We actually took a lot of pictures but I really don't think it's wise to post them all up, right?

And after Zoo, it was supper with the Usuals at bukit timah. They wanted to have late night plans but I was really too tired so we headed home.

Woke up in the late afternoon and met up with Mr.Cookie. AGAIN. We went on a very short shopping trip before we headed back to meet the Usuals for dinner.

After dinner, went back to Mr.Cookie.'s place to slack and waited for the car. Meanwhile, the boys taught the girls the Art of CounterStrike. Got the car and we zoomed off to Bishan for some late night prawning. It was some sort my first and I was such an amateur. It took me 2 hours to catch 1 pathetic prawn. Mr. Cookie. was better - he caught 5 or 6. Overall, it was fun fun fun.

The time was up and we drove back to the West side for outdoor cooking. Dropped by the petrol kiosk to get hotdogs and crab sticks and started the fire somewhere near Guilin. Mass tins, solid fuels and butter - enough for us to whip up a deelicious meal.

The food was good, though a bit cruel la. Ha ha. More of such please, but try to make it a day time affair. Tired la!!! Ha ha ha... Reached home at about 5am and slept.

Woke up hours later for lunch in town with the family and Sean's. And after lunch, met up with Eileen dearest at Bugis. We went to that temple there for prayers and down to Bugis Street to hunt for cheap bargains. The place was hot and crampy.

Went back to Bugis Junction to meet Dennis for Ratatouille. Nice nice movie. Dinner was Pepper Lunch and after that, it was home sweet home. Didn't manage to take pictures, I don't know why. Sigh* But it was a really great meetup.

So, this was my weekend, how's yours?

2007-09-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps, i'll be back with more updates soon with many many visuals to come along with. Keep checking alright? Cheers*

2007-09-05T17:35:00.001+08:00

Hi peeps, new blog layout. Credits to Mr. Cookie. Comments please!! Love <3

2007-09-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

Good day people!

The day started with us having breakfast at McDonald's for our usual hotcakes dosage and we drove down to his school to handover some instructions. Following that, we sped down to ECP for the long awaited outdoor cooking!!! Yay!!! =)

Cooking by the sea, together with the blowing sea breeze is really a lot of fun. Despite the presence of the strong wind, we overcame the barrier and started our first fire by the tree. We started cooking the stuff and halfway through, cookie destroyed the burning flame and we rushed to start a second pit. It was really exciting with us trying to get the food cooked. Us, with the irritated with the wind face cracked us up so badly that got me squatting down and giggling non-stop. It was such an accomplishment and satisfaction to see the cooked food done up, smelling deliciously good.

While lunching, we played TabOO. This game got us, okay, me, shouting in desperation trying to get cookie to guess the words right. It was fun playing such games with cookie. However, because of the excitement, I got overly aggressive and apparently, cookie wasn't too happy about that. We stopped playing, packed up and bought ah-pek ice cream. Then we walked down the beach and it was total sweetness *muack*

After ECP, decided to drop by Serene Centre for more ice-cream but somehow, things went wrong again and we didn't end up there. Instead, we went for dinner and it was home sweet home.

And here I am, typing this entry, reminiscing about the day spent with cookie. It got me thinking if Cookie is really the one for me *Smile with a nod* I think he is. Happy 71st month-niversary. One more month to 6 sweet years. iLOVEyou*

2007-09-01T09:43:00.000+08:00

It's been a tat too long now. Holidays has been okay so far. Haven't been going out these days. Next week will be better I hope, and I think it will.

Apologies to Kenneth and friends for not being able to attend that lunch the other day. Nonetheless, BON VOYAGE dearest Kenneth. Hope all will be well for you in China!!! Take care!

Anyways, it's teachers' day today and I had this special opportunity to join the Anthonians for celebration yesterday. The HRM peeps had a gathering yesterday at Jacqueline Foong's place too. The food was good, though it was merely a simple fare and the catching up was great. It's just a pity that we didn't take much pictures. And I seriously have to comment that Jacqueline's baby girl is superly cute, her cheeks so big and fleshy!!! Awwww... I'll try to get some pictures from the tutors if I can and then I'll post them up.

And and and... cabbing with bowling and deafy was so much fun! The pushing around and the safari logo was cracking us up!!! More of such please!!!

And to cookie and dajie: HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!! =)

I suddenly feel the holiday mood!!! I needa go on a HOLIDAYYYY*****

More updates later!!! Love people!

2007-08-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

Yayness to end of EXAMS! Okay, a bit too slow. My last paper ended last friday, but because of the need to catch up all the rest that I've lost within that period, I've decided to put blogging on hold. Post exams activities has been eventful and upcoming! Since I'm forgoing IAP this time round, I have a pretty long holiday! The rest of the peeps involved in IAP will be starting work next monday.

I need to start planning all the things that I wanna do this holidays. I wanna go for the movies, hit the malls, catch up with all my beloved friends over a cuppa ice cool latte/frap, ktv-ing, go swimming and suntanning, outdoor cooking/picnic, plan a good overseas trip, steamboat-ing, and so many so many things I wanna do!!!! I wonder if there is enough time for everything!!! I wanna do as much as I can!!!

Woke up this morning to visit the GP. My face seems to be allergic to some facial products that I'm using. It's so dry and flaky and when the flakes peel off, it hurts so bad. Now, I need to find out the cause behind this allergy. Urgh *&#*&$*

Marie-pia is starting work today at OCBC bank. All the best* hehe!! Earn the big bucks and buy some goodies for me k? Have fun at work and hope you meet better colleagues this time round <3

Waiting to go movies with cookie* =)

Cheers to a good and fun holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

I have a very bad feel for this semester. Nothing has gone the right way so far. The papers taken are more of a disappointment. I am not satisfied! NOT a single bit! I pray for the best, but what's the best if I can't even get the information to stay in my stupid brain!! I see myself one more step away from uni! All these after so much hard work and perseverance!!! How to survive like that? *tsk tsk*

I see myself giving up, yet forcing myself to press on! I need strength!!!

Okay, done complaining. I needa mug!

2007-08-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

Demoralised with a shattered heart. Praying hard for the rest of the journey be a little more smoother! Till the end, I'll keep my fingers crossed! sigh*

2007-08-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

Underneath that beauty, I see darkness...

2007-08-16T14:35:00.000+08:00

Decided to unwind abit yesterday. Took time off from the notes and relaxed the mind a little. Sup at West Coast. Willie and Ade was supposed to join us but due to their own commitments, they decided not to join us. So, it was one-on-one time with the Cookie* Ate like a pig but somehow, very satisfied.

And after all those relaxing, it's time to get back to work. Woke up reluctantly this cold rainy morning and here I am, slogging my guts out! It's till I mug till I drown*

Damn! Papers' starting in 2 days time and the information just won't stay in my head! Work it out brain cells!!!!!!!!

2007-08-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

It's been forever since I devoted time to updating my space here. Time gave way to revision for the upcoming exams which is in not more than a week's time now! The tremendous stress that I'm feeling!! I aim and pray for the best...

I'll study till these turn brown

Besides mugging, my diet has been expanding day by day. Studying depletes energy and I never seem to feel full and bloated. I see fats building up now. And to end this, here's to Cookie* Thanks for being around! Love*

2007-08-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

I don't want to lie and pretend that I am fine, but if what you need is my understanding, I'll give them to you...

2007-08-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

I've been a good girl today. Did a whee-bit of revision. If not for the stupid flu bug and that swollen eye, I could have studied a little more. Credits to cookie for being my companion. I know I've been a sick, whiny baby today. Thanks again for that silly side that brightened up my day a whole lot. Suddenly, cookie seems so good at making me laugh* Why ah? Ha!

HRMS software test tomorrow. I don't know if I'm ready for it, but I prepared myself a little. Hope it works out well though - it's 20%.

Singapore's birthday in less than a week now. Anything special for that day? Cookie may be planning something I guess. Hmm.. will see how!!

STUDY STUDY!! Be motivated!!!

2007-08-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

You're my SUNSHINE!!! Happy 70th monthniversary.. i LOVE this counting craze* huggles

I'm falling in love yet again.. thanks honey*

2007-08-04T11:50:00.000+08:00

The week has been okay-ok so far. Besides that certain aspects are going wrong, the other part of life is still very fine.

Milestone of the week: Cookie got his driving license and yours truly was given the honour of being his 1st passenger *smilex*

I foresee many friday night suppers to come now!!! See those fats building up around my thick waist? Aww!!! Disgusting! Hahaha... but who can resist food? I can't!

Exams coming in not more than 2weeks now!!! Get down to work soon!!!

Good week people*

2007-07-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

How to remove the blues on a Monday?

There can only be one solution to this - meet your love ones; family, friends or even your other life.

Thumbs up to Cookie who eliminated all the blues I was suffering earlier. Am really glad that at this point of time when things doesn't seem to go the right way, you're by my side. Thanks for showing me that silly side of you, which totally brightened up my day. Huggles*

In life, there's always the down side that appears as obstacles ahead. But if you have faith, you'll bypass every single one of them. Jean, be STRONG!!!

/edit 2235: Good luck for driving tmr, you can do it!! I believe so... LOVES

2007-07-30T15:41:00.000+08:00

The weather is so chilly now and I feel like Singapore is experiencing winter of its own kind.. Haha*

2007-07-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

This weekend was fantastically spent with Mr.Cookie. Did a little shopping and then to Hidayah's 21st birthday. I ate so much yesterday I felt like a bloated balloon when I woke up this morning. This eating habit ain't gonna stop cos' for the next few days coming, there's gonna be many more celebrations and parties. How to not grow FAT like that? Urgh*** FOOD is the taboo now!!!

My life partner* Mr. Cookie...

Getting ready for a group pic*

Happy Birthday Hidayah*

The look-somewhere-else pic*

Enough of the fun side, cos' exams is coming in less than 3 weeks now. I feel the stress building up and I need the motivation to start mugging. I'm halfway through my final battle and I better face this affair seriously.

Cookie, you'll be my studymate right? Love love*

2007-07-28T11:24:00.000+08:00

I actually wrote a SUPER long entry before this. That entry was meant to be for that idiotic someone but I've decided to remove it from my posts. Come to think about it again, I don't see why I should fight with it. I don't see why I should waste my time getting angry and all worked up over something that I know is not my fault. Despite that, I still have a message for it...

To that idiotic "it"

Stop thinking that you're perfect and you're flawless. Everyone has flaws so do you. Stop setting your own criterias and use them to judge others. If you haven't realised it, those criterias that you set to label a person b*tch are all reflected on yourself. You fit your own criterias!!!

You can say whatever you want from now. In case you didn't know, the more you say and insult someone, the more it reflects how shallow a person you're. Go ahead and criticise me publicly, I don't care. Because from now on, whatever that comes out from you will not affect me anymore. So, say what you want...

But I have one advice for you: REFLECT before you COMMENT!!

2007-07-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

23rd July was a joyous day for both Cookie (turned 21st) and Er Jie (turned 23rd)

Initial plan was to attend my "sis's" birthday party at Chevrons together with Cookie

Will start off this entry with a short time line...

1400: Checked in to Chevrons together with Willie and Adeline dear

1430: Went to Giant IMM to get the necessities and food

The poor fish with its tongue sticking out

1530: Roy joined us

1600: Gathered all the food, collected the cake, took a cab back to Chevrons and met up with Shatish

1615: Washed and marinated all the food, decorated the place, cleared up a little, discussed the plan a little 1730: Watched the telly and slacked abit

1800: First guest, tok, arrived

1830: More guests started arriving

1845: Cookie called after work and we "planned" to meet at Jurong East mrt station at 1915

1900: Took a cab to Jurong East, walked around the area, dropped by NTUC to get durians, and in between, was making secretive calls to my liaison officers (Willie)

1915: Got the signal to leave Jurong East and head for the chalet

1925: Reached Chevrons, acted a little sotong-ish and this was what happened...

Me: Eh.. why are the chalet lights off?

(Me and Cookie went into the dark chalet)

Me: Eh.. why got no one? Hellloo???????

Cookie: (calmly and not suspecting anything) There's someone upstairs!!!

Me: Huh? Where got? I see... Where got la?

Me: Let me go to the pit and check it out... (walked to the back door and pretended to check outside)

Suddenly, POP POP!!! (screamings of the guests from above) Happy BIRTHDAY!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cookie turned into a big red tomato almost immediately!!!! Hahaha... yes... he fell for MY trick!!! It was a surprised party for HIM, it wasn't for sis!!!!

Guessed Cookie was for a moment, at a loss of words. Hiak hiak hiak* Cookie's girlfriend is a sly Elmo!!!

Although I didn't manage to get ALL his friends to join us at the party and celebrate his 21st, I hope he enjoyed what I've planned for him. We were supposed to invite his family too, but his younger bro was sick, sucha pity.

Pictures help say thousand words and I see smiles coming right from the heart.

My beloved birthday boy

The people celebrating the JOY

The Yuqun-ians

The Royalties

The Clementeens

The JJCians

Not forgetting the pranks for the bday boy - smashed cake on face and drowning duckie* (we forced him to eat durians too but too bad no pics*)

Despite a busy night, I took time to camwhore with the Royal babes

With Ridhwan

With Robin, after many FAILED attempts

With Adeline dear

And before I end this entry, I wanna thank every single one of you who has made this surprise a success - Willie & Adeline, Shatish, Roy & Maybelline, William, Freddy & Meijing, Wendy, Ms Koh, the Royalties, Robin & Clara, Ridhwan & spouse, Tok, Weichang, Silvest and Jason. Thanks for being part of this.

And to Cookie, hope you had the most unforgettable 21st. This is the least I could do for you on your very special day! Love ya love ya*

2007-07-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

The surprise worked out pretty succesfully, very much according to what I hope and expected. More updates on that when Vel darling send me the pictures.

On a darker side, my advice for you: Reflect before you comment, you're just drawing on your own face.

More updates soon...

2007-07-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'm counting down to that very special day. Less than just 2 hours...

Before that, I wanna send you some blessings! Love*

2007-07-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

It is meaningless if I have to be in this alone... what's the whole point?

Make me stronger please...

2007-07-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

And it's been a long time since I add some liveliness to my blog. Life's been good so far. Everything nice and dandy. Not much complaints or whatsoever. I thank those who made it happen. Loves.

And the overdue pics...

Batok Loves

This is when I say "it's FOREVER"

2007-07-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

The worst is finally over...

Presentations went off pretty well and this time round was actually better than the previous year when I did it - at least I did lots of eye contact.

Good news always come in pairs. Cookie's got a new career, something we both never expected him to go into. It's a mystery to be known by me, you and her *grins*

Actually I didn't really have the mood to update, but I'm just here cos' the big sis was bugging me to pay attention to my bloggie and here I am...

IB talk at Shangri-la tomorrow. It better be good or we'll probably chiao halfway. Hiak hiak*

Bye peeps. Have a fun weekend... ignore Friday the 13th. Love*

2007-07-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

I've been telling myself to accept people the way they are, and to criticise less about them. But then again, it's hard especially when that someone has this thing against you, puts themself so highly above others and expects respect to be given.

It disgusts me to see how you try to order people around and expect people to listen to you like you're some kind of a command here. It irks me to see you putting your ideas off as the best. It turns me off when I see you trying to claim credit you don't even deserve and make people see you as the diligent one. It bothers me when you try to laugh off every single thing, and especially when they are serious and does not look any bit like a joke. It vexs me when you nag at people like we will listen to you.

And so, please be a kind soul for once and get out of my life. Don't ever think you have the rights to dictate my life. It's my life, not yours! You make yourself look so pathetic and I practically sympatize you.

Mess with me again and I swear I'll be nasty. Don't make me do what I don't wish to.

Once again, it's not how YOU look at people but how THEY judge you *bleah

2007-07-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

It's you who can make the worse turn good.

It's you who can turn that frown into smiles.

It's you who make the world so beautiful.

It's you who tells me 'I love you'

Happy 69th monthniversary* Huggies*

2007-07-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

I feel like a bumble bee. I've been working on projects, projects, projects and projects. Deadlines are coming up and before it doesn, i'll probably be dead!

The status so close, but the distance so far... where are you?

2007-07-01T21:16:00.000+08:00

Okay, the location for that event is somewhat confirmed. Just a few more things to confirm and TA-DA, it's done.

Past few days haven't been too good. Too many things has happened and I don't know whether I can take it. Tears are fallen, but I guess I'll get over it. I'm strong, and even when I know I am not strong enough, I know I have to learn to be able to take things in my stride and I will.

Sometimes, it's not just making decisions, but the matter of making the RIGHT decision. The right decision that will not let anyone down, especially those you hold close to your heart. I've learnt that it's difficult to make that ONE decision, when you have to consider the feelings of many. It's always not easy to make everyone around happy, but again, who can make you happy?

A new week marks a new start and let's just hope things turns out well* Cheers people!

2007-06-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

Sudden thoughts...

The other day when I was out with Cookie, we saw this malay family with 3 kids who are really cute. They were running around in the train station and we noticed something peculiar about the 2nd sister - yeah, I think she has down syndrome.

I told Cookie this:

"Dear, you see that girl, she's so cute but so unfortunate. She's even cuter than her youngest sister. Are the aspects of life always unbalanced? People always lose out on the other side of life. So, is she blessed or not?"

There are so many cases that we've seen but have you ever ponder upon them? It's always you have something and you lack the other. Life's just like that, we can never grumble and whine enough.

People may think that physical appearance is a MUST have in life. True, it is important, but it's not the only aspect we look at in life. And it's obvious what else is of more significance.

That's why I feel really blessed that I have my family, Cookie and my best girlies around me. At least when I need some loving, when I feel depressed and troubled, I'll never feel ALONE. Their love is something money can't buy.

2007-06-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

The day started off with me and deafy at bowling's place. Supposed to do our project but because we are stucked at Financials and BECAUSE of the lazy bug's visit, we ended up playing Monopoly. And guess who built the most houses and who became SO broke and have to sell off her land and houses? Hiak hiak hiak* Not ME definitely, I AM the millionaire. Sorry babes* Someone just gotta go bankrupt!! Hahaha. It's a pity we didn't have enough time to continue the play and build hotels. No worries, there's always a next time*

And, bowling got herself a really fantastic phone, and we started off the usual snap-snappings!!! There you go*

By the way, the above pic was taken the other day at Kenneth's place* Black was just a coincidence

I love spending time with my girlies* They RAWK!!!

2007-06-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

As promised, the overdue Ubin pictures.

Waiting for the late-comers*

What's a group outing without a group pic?

The beautiful yet dangerous quarry*

The memories that are worth lifetime remembrance*

This amusing pic to end the wonderful Ubin trip*

2007-06-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

Eventful day which I'm not going to go into detail with...

Lunch with mariepia at Macs; Toured around places we used to visit when we were younger.

After tuition, visited Kenneth at his place. The ex-class had a mini gathering; pizzas, drumlets, dai-dee and all the laughter, it was e-n-j-o-y-a-b-l-e. Pictures are limited but will be up soon.

Currently into this show shown on SCV and I tell you, JOE ma is really charming *dreams*

Friday's nearing, can you smell it?

2007-06-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

What will you do when you know someone's doing the wrong thing?

2007-06-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, I feel what people call - lOVESiCk*

Where are you when I need you? I miss hanging out with you and I miss talking to you!! I miss your silliness and I miss your not funny jokes. Come to me now!! Stop working, it's late!!!

2007-06-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

I dedicate this entry to the sister:

Many times in life, we are not granted a choice for certain things. How we want things to be, it depends on how much courage you have to face the obstacles, whether you're up for that challenge or not. The will to fight is yours. People cannot always be around to tell you what to do, you need to start to stand up for yourself.

You know the kind of position I am in right now, and you know very well how much I am not going to give up. Hold on to that spirit, know what you deserve to get. Ask yourself how much value you have for others to look upon you.

Only when you have that desire for the things you want in life, then you can achieve what you call YOURS. Jiayou!!! You know the family's behind you, although most of the time we do not show it* =)

2007-06-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

And what do you get after a day's trip in Ubin - SORE and PAINFUL leg muscles.

All the cycling, the upslopes and downslopes was fun fun fun. Despite the rain, everyone of us enjoyed ourselves, okay, INcluding the part where I landed myself in THAT pathetic state. It was funny, so, laugh people! And right now, I am definitely looking forward to the Sentosa trip. Guys!!! When when when?

Pictures will be up after Cookie's friend pass it to me. Willie willie, I want the PICTURES!!!

Back on track, it's Father's Day today. And I guess I should really take this chance to say this, LOVE YOU DAD*

Dinner at Marriot later, and till then, I'll go rest my legs.

2007-06-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

Just that ONE project meeting is enough to burst 7218743274382783209 of my blood vessels. All those self-centeredness, egoistic-ness and individualism, I cannot take it anymore!!!

If it's really that necessary for YOU to take control of everything, go ahead, I won't stop you, but I ain't gonna be doing anything for YOU. Why should I even bother when I know my efforts will NEVER be appreciated? Rejection, that's all I see from you. Doesn't matter if you need us or rather do we even need you. Get a life son, you and your FILTHY attitude, you're gonna clean up those mess, all ALONE. There is no way this thing is going to work out if you continue giving me what I call, the LOUSIEST team spirit. My advice for you, 5 brains is always better than 1.

All this nonsense is really killing me, really...

On the brighter side, Ubin is almost there thanks to Cookie and friends. And I'm really glad that at this moment, I have all my loved ones supporting me.

Apologies to dad for flaring up and throwing my tantrum. I know you care, I know it all, but the stress that I'm facing right now, you'll probably not feel it. I will be strong, like what you told me to, I will be, just so to make things work out.

Night people, it's another long day tomorrow but somehow, I am not looking forward to it.

2007-06-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

I feel lazy to leave the house to do anything today so, decided to head home after tuition. And what did I do? Here goes...

* Changed a blog skin
* Napped for 3 hours
* Snacked
* Watched VCDs
* Surfed the net

Cookie's friend suggested going to Ubin this weekend, but cookie seems really hesitant. Cookie cookie, I want to go Ubin, can can?

Today's a boring day!!!!!!!!!

I miss cookie, I miss Royalties, I miss eileen, I miss all the people I haven't seen since don't know when, I miss ALL the people.

Bye now!

2007-06-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

I spent the earlier part of my Sunday with cookie at Central Clarke Quay. We tried the mini donuts which weren't nice at all. The donuts soaked up all the oil and I felt as if I was drinking oil. Still prefer those from Donut Factory, but LONG QUEUE LEH!!! Enjoyed the breeze by the river cos' the mall is really too small for anyone to shop for long. And being very bored, we went to take pictures at this digital IC photo-taking stand - haha*

Evening came and cookie sent me to Vivo to meet the Royalties for Angelic's belated 21st birthday dinner. Sorry dear for dragging it so long. If not for Vel's exams and my common tests, we could have celebrated earlier. Hope you love the pressies we've bought though they aren't anything really fantastic. And today's meet up was a lil' too short don't you think? Meet up again for quality Royalties' time please. We really need to. Anyhoos, today was really really enjoyable. It's really nice to see every single Royalty after so long. Love you girls to bits.

As usual, we did some snap-snapping... so there you go*

The beautiful birthday girl* with loads of pressies - 21 if you need to know

The ROYALTIES*

And the vel* and me got the other 2 royalites best friends necklaces

I love them alot*

P/S: Realised my long hair is gone now. Big sis prefer me short haired, how about you?

2007-06-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

And before I start on my entry, it's time for the big yell - COMMON TEST is OVERRRRRR!!! GRACE THE LONG AWAITED HOLIDAYSSSSSSSS....

Back track a little to Vesak Day eve...

Had a random day in school without deafy the DONKEY. Did a survey session with the Year 1s and it kinda suck cos' they treated us like ediots and obviously presented their very stupid acts. What's with the "this survey is rubbish??" Just do it and get it over and done with you cuckoo... cos' you'll be doing what we're doing soon. Bleah* Had a crazy T&D class with bowling... we starting snapping away in class... hehehe*

Went for a bbq with cookie and his friends at Pasir Ris park after school. It was kind of impromtu but, it was fun and all. Surprisely, the food prepared by the guys was deeelicious. Camped overnight and I swear we gave a really scrumptous meal to the mossies there too. Heck, that was besides the point. Willie brought along his babe, Adeline, and she's a really nice girl. Supposed to go to Pulau Ubin the next morning but due to the fact that we didn't have enough rest, the idea was put aside. You guys better promise me another Ubin trip soon!!!!!

Okay, nuff' said, let the visuals do the talking.

Shatish makes good and tasty Satay

Lovey Dovey for 6 years and going on

And I wanna end this entry by saying this... Happy belated 68th monthniversary Cookie* Love love...

2007-05-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

My current life is very much revolved around cookie and his friends.

Friday saw me together with bowling and deafy at Lot 1 X-zone for some killing-actions!!! It was an impromtu decision and we did the DDR experience. Cookie and his friends were there with us before they went off for their business appointment.

Saturday, went for some studying at Raffles City, then window shopped around with cookie. Sale sale sale everywhere.

Sunday again was studying.

And today's IR was a dread. Didn't do up to my expection. Disappointed, yes I am. Shall work hard from now...

P/S: Please make up your mind on what you want. Don't give me those last minute nonsense.. you know I don't buy them!!!

I have the bbq and Pulau Ubin to look forward too!!! Yays!!!

2007-05-24T20:20:00.000+08:00

Thursday morning perfection.

Tutor was on medical, so WISP in the morning was cancelled, meaning, I have extra time to meet cookie and his friends for brekkie. Cookie and his friends were supposed to market some products to me, but we ended up chilling around Alif and Mac. Shrek's ears was the joke of the day.

Being very nice, cookie sent me to school. Happiness!!!

Another good news, my group ranked 3rd for IB game. Congrats peeps.. keep up the good work alrighty?

Weekends is coming.. can you smell it can you??

2007-05-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

I shall declare today as Killer-Heels day. Oh yeah, I went out in heels and I had a hell of a day. Walking in heels really requires regular practice. Definitely, as a heels-amateur, I really have alot to learn, walking in heels. Nonetheless, due to the pain from wearing heels, saw the lovely side of the cookie-monster. Being showered with loads of TLC, I feel like a princess. So nice to see him go all out just to ease my pain; putting plasters on my toes and making me laugh to forget the pain. Thanks cookie.. I love you*

Anyways, tried the new "Whatever" drink today. Nothing special really, just some dumb tea. It's funny how both of us were so excited to try out the surprise taste. No surprise at all really. It doesn't suck, but it's just very normal.

Bought my vintage watch. Bargained a little, satisfied with my buys. Caught Blades of Glory which I give 2 outta 5 popcorns.

Kept telling cookie how much I wanna go Cafe Del Mar. I wanna experience that kind of atmosphere they have there.

Today's a really fantastic day... I'm loving it...

Common test in 2 weeks time, time to work hard!!!

Ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough...

Man Utd vs Chelsea tonight... I hope Man Utd wins... cos' my cookie's a fan!!! Hehehe*

I getting random... overly random...

Till then... Nananana...nananana...heyheyhey...goodbye

2007-05-16T09:52:00.000+08:00

It's a surprise to see me in school one and a half hours before tutorial starts. Supposed to come early to complete the presentation slides, but but but, only one of my group members sent their parts to me!!! What the...

Anyways, since I have some time before lessons start, I thought I might as well blog, so TA-DA, here I am.

Obviously didn't have enough sleep last night cos' I was hanging out with the beloved and his buddies. Finally got a chance to meet up with them after hearing so much from him. One of his friends, Willie knows Velda cos' they're from the same church. Cool? Vel, I think you know him right? Anyhoos, they are really nice people and from them, I heard alot about him, many things which I didn't expect to hear came popping out. Okay, there were both good and the not too good stuffs. All in all, what they told me really made me a happy girl.

The first meeting was somehow wonderful in a sense. I don't feel like a stranger to them because they are really very welcoming people, very gentlemenly too. And from the way these 3 guys talk, you can really see that bond within them. That special friendship, just like mine with the Royalties and Eileen. It's a blessing to know that in this world, there are certain people around you that connects with your heart and reads your mind so correctly.

Anyhoos, will be joining the 3 guys to paint beloved's room next weekend. Can't wait can't wait!!! =) It's gonna be so much fun hanging out with them again. Somehow, their conversations never fail to make me laugh. Hahaha...

P/S: Thanks for the Cookie Monster!! So cute* Love it loads. Love you too!!!! *grins*

Okay okay, back to lessons now!!! Shhh...

2007-05-14T20:33:00.000+08:00

My life is still very much packed with events. It's a mad rush from school, to meeting project deadlines, to meeting the beloved, to spending time with my friends and spending mother's day with DA FAMILY.

Friday was dinner with the beloved at Vivo City. It was total sweetness to call a dinner date with fantastic night scenery planted with shiny shiny stars, and loads of loving to top up with it. Last week was a really tough one for me and him, but I'm glad we've went through all odds and broke that invisible heartlock. Everything's back to normal, if not better. Now, that makes me a happy one.

Saturday was loving with the mother and big sister. Towning was good. Dinner was perfect. We had complimentary dessert thanks to mummy.

Sunday was mummy's day and this year, the plan was to celebrate this special day at my grandparents place. Mum went over in the afternoon with dad and er jie cos' Mum's the cook for the gathering. Was picked up by Da Jie from home after my tuition. Da Jie bought carnations and daisy for the all the mummy-s, including Wani, the maid that we hired to look after granddaddy. We also got cakes from Four Leaves and I don't remember trying any bits of them. Nonetheless, the dinner was great cos' it's been pretty long since we gathered around for dinner like that. A pity all the grandsons weren't around. Cheers to all the granddaughters!!! =)

The food was a simple fare, but delicious somehow

My mum's side

The granddaughters

The pictures quality is unsatisfactory. If you notice, the pictures are quite blurry. Contemplating on getting a digital camera. Canon seems like a good choice, yes? no? Please give me your valued comments *smile*

2007-05-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

Screw the word LOVE, it doesn't exist
The word is a word, nothing more than a word
I don't see it neither do I feel it
It makes us happy yet it makes us tear
It makes us want it yet hate it all the same
It makes us blessed yet it hurts so badly
It means nothing but just a meaningless word

Am feeling really random right now. Words may not be able to explain how I really feel inside of me. Work is piling up at 19831947824336984 miles per second and I can feel my air pipes choking up. I feel my routine is so packed I have hardly any extra time for rest. And when rest is not sufficient, what happens? A sleepyhead me dozing off in tutorials, lectures and even in the bus. What characteristics does a sleepyhead have? A really foul temper! I cannot explain my antics, my speech, my tone. I can only reflect and see what I can do to make things right, bring my life back to the right track.

I'm just glad I have my treasures with me. At least I know I have someone to lean back on.

I think I needa go have some rest. Bless me!

2007-05-03T20:16:00.000+08:00

This is has got to be a busy yet not too busy week. Eventful is the word.

Visited dearest's daddy at the hospital last weekend. Not that anything bad happened, it was just a routine check. Saw many of his relatives and being a non-malay, I kind of feel awkward. Fortunately, his peeps are really welcoming people. Was greeted with nothing but smiles. Following the visit, went to Ayer Raya for dinner with his mum, his brothers and auntie.

Definitely, we did not miss out any chances to create mischief in the hospital. Check this out.

Following Monday, my beloved Royalty turned 21!!! Sorry dear we can't be there to witness this special day. Promise we'll make it up to you. Just wanna take this chance to tell you how much I love you, love you for who you've been and for being sucha unique character in my life. Stay pretty and glamorous okie? Huggles*

Also on Monday, went to help out at the pre-preparation event for the HR Congress. Did loads of dirty work that made all of us felt like factory workers. And and and, there's this lady there who ended up irritating me. I can't stand it when she took our help for granted. Hello?? I wouldn't be there if not for CCA points okay!!!! BE APPRECIATIVE!! Urgh*

Monday night was more pleasant cos' I met Eileen and Dennis for our pratakambingotahrotijohn session. Gawd!! Looking at the amounts of food we're gorge on I feel we are food monsters. Dearest couldn't join cos' he went for his friend's 21st bash!!! Too bad for him!!!

Tuesday was May day and it meant H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!!! Took this chance to go shopping with Eileen. Town is getting boring. It's surprising how I can find NOTHING to buy. Yes, you saw it right... NOTHING!!!! I wonder how some people can go into shops and come out with big big bags of stuffs. The rationale is, the things are not even nice!!! Urgh* Okayx.. everyone has their own perception on things and I am definitely not in the position to comment on it. Boo!! Who cares?!

School was the same on Wednesday except that classes were more pleasant than usual. Cos' that particular one went for the HR Congress. *Oops

And today, was sent to the HR Congress Seminar held at Carpthorne Hotel Waterfront. Was unhappy over this arrangement cos' today's supposedly our elearning day (meaning no early wakeup calls), and we had to attend this BORING to the EXTREME seminar which starts at 9am. Double boos!!! Anyways, we chiao halfway cos' we felt it was a waste of time.

Went to dearest place after chiao-ing the seminar and I swear today's the last time I'm gonna put Ramly burgers into my mouth. Not that it's not tasty, but it's really messy when you eat it. I had chilli-mix-mayo-mix-bbq sauce all over my mouth when I was eating it. Hehe* Napped and went home while he went to work.

That's my week so far. I told you it's pretty eventful... RIGHT?

2007-04-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

Towning with the loveliest team trio last weekend and we had helluva fun!!! Lunch was at Ding Tai Fung and movies all thanks to DENNIS LIM. How to not feel pampered with you around rights?? Heheh!!! Eileen and me are your little princesses!! Yay yay yay!!! Thanks thanks!!!

Went back to school yesterday and I was sleepy most of the day. Must be cos' I slept too much last week. Still, I heart my friends!!! New classmates, familiar faces but I miss TB 29!!!! Urgh****

Visited the dentist today to get my stitches removed - and what does that imply? GOOD FOOD good food!!!! Yummy yummy...

The dentist had some emergency cases and left me waiting for an hour. So so so... the mischievous me started snap snap around the clinic.

Took a cab to school cos I was LATE!! It was a mad rush!!! Really... but heck*

The idiotic sister is disturbing me with all the NUDGING and WINKS!!! STOPPPPPP!!!!!!!!

Back to ITP report...

2007-04-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

And the MELAYU and me decided to head down CTSS carnival 2007 and it was a blast. Not the carnival but more of the companionship. Done loads of catching up and stuffs and I finally had a good chat with mr MAC, after so long. Mrs Gan was around to entertain us and talked alot about the past. Let's just let pictures do the talking alrights?

Us and the beloved 'PARENT' *huggs*

4A1!!! I LOVE!!!!

We love to POSE!!!

HE and his MEMBERS!!!

Aspire & GROW!! YES.. we are growing!!!

The Ambassadors!!!

Robin came along, and I don't feel as lonely!!! =)

And eventually, we kissed goodbye to the land of MEMORIES

Then we went off to have our own FUN!!!!

And that's when I feel the happiness of LIFE...

2007-04-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

And I decided to go back the land of tutors, lectures and classes. Yes, I went back to school. It was a bad decision cos' I came home with a terrible pain on my wound.

Nevertheless, it was nice meeting up with friends I haven't met for months, the catching up was heaven. However, WISP was BORING or rather, it was l-a-m-e. The ice-breaker and the guessing games, eww... I won't want to go through them again.

Anyhoos, dearest visited and brightened up my boring afternoon. Pardon my swollen cheeks!!!

2007-04-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

Some very overdued pictures...

The party-ers

Can you spot his brother? hehe*

The vainpots*

2007-04-18T12:35:00.000+08:00

I'm officially a porridge fan. Porridge with bovril is what I've been having for brekkie, lunch and dinner these few days. As much as I love porridges, I'm getting sick of it. Tried biting on some grapes just now, but it hurts. Endurance!!!! Good food day is nearing. Meanwhile, I can only sulk.

Anyways, my face seemed to be swelling more each day. The pain is not easing at all and it doesn't help when I kept forgetting to take my antibiotics regularly. Urgh*** I got this very strong feeling I may not make it to school tomorrow for my IS, but somehow, I really don't wanna miss IS cos' it's gonna be really hard to catch up. I can only hope the swell on my face goes down a little at least by tonight.

Choices, when we talk about choices, most of the time, we make them not according to what we want, but what we have to. These choices, whether we like them or not, we have to make it. So, what's the irony here? Do we really have a CHOICE? I don't think so. Despite that, can we do anything to make it better? Apparently, we can only accept the whole reality and face it bravely. And dear, I want you to know, everything is possible if you wanna work hard for it. It's not a matter of whether you have a choice, but a matter of whether you want to find your choices. I'll be supporting you all the way, I promise!!!

I sound like I'm crapping... must be the pain acting on me!!!!

The dearest is visiting later after his driving lessons. Love love <3

2007-04-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

The worst is finally over.

Went for my wisdom tooth extraction, 3 wisdom and 1 funny teeth. Went to the National Dental Centre this morning, did all the necessary paper work, measured height and weight and changed. Waited, was asked to go into the Operating Theatre, lied down, the anaesthetician put me on a drip, and the assistant allow me to sniff in some air through this oxygen mask. Slowly, in fact, not to slowly, I fell into deep sleep...

Moments later, was woken by the nurse. At that very moment, I started shivering really badly. Part of me was feeling really cold, the other part was fear. I thought the surgery is not over and I woke up before it ends, meaning, I will experience pain. When the nurse told me gently that she will push me back to the ward, that is when my heart beats a little slower and I felt warmer.

I was half conscious after the surgery. Feeling really drowsy and weak, plus the pain from the wound, I slept AGAIN. Parents came to check on me at around 1 plus. I was already quite waken by then. Talked and felt the pain. Discharged, paid up and back home.

Apprently, today was very much a painful and sleepy day for me. Slept alot today. Woke up in the evening and felt extremely hungry. Didn't eat anything until dinner and dinner was just 3 bowls of porridge. Luckily for me, I didn't lose my appetite. I swear once my wound heals, I'll gorge on all the nicest food out there.

Here's a picture of my valued teeth. Some may think it's disgusting but I just feel that I should keep them as a memory.

I hope I don't drool tonight... I don't want to wake up to a blood-stained pillow!!! Eww..

P/S: To all those who went back to school today, hope it's wonderful. Can't wait to meet up with you guys!!! Enjoy school!!!

2007-04-13T15:02:00.000+08:00

"Finally it's OVER!!!" In just 3 hours' time, I'll be shouting that 3 words. Attachment is gonna be over, I can't wait!!!!

Before I put this journey into my life archive, will like to take the opportunity to thank those who has made this journey wonderful, in a way or another.

Yueying
Thanks for being such a darling, lunching with me every single day of work and listening to my tonnes of complaints about people I don't like working with. Although I've known you for less than 2 months, but it's just amazing how we clicked with each other. It feels like I've known you forever. We'll be going back to school to finish up final year. Even though I know I'll never be as close to you as what we are after today, you'll always be a part of me. Thanks for all laughter you've given me. You're a great friend. All the best in all your future endeavours and eternal love for you and your "baobei" *hehe*

Katherine
What attracts me about you is definitely your ever-so-cheerful laughter. Even though we are not officially introduced to each other, it seems like we have this invisible connection that pulls us together. Talking to you never fails to cheer up my boring workday. It's you that makes my presence in Cosec felt. Thanks for all the puffs and the pies. They are delicious and has certainly help put on those extra kilos that I need and should shed off soon.

Kim, Melissa, Sally
Thanks for the guidance you guys have given. I came into the company knowing nuts about Annual General Meetings and now I'm leaving you guys, with a hell lot of knowledge about those meetings and directors!!! Without you guys, my journey may not be as smooth-going. Xie xie ni men!!!!

Esther
Your strict face shys me away from you a little. Your high expectations made me fear you a little. However, I know, deep down, you're a really good boss. Even though you haven't been a very active character in my journey, you're significant. Sorry for all the trouble I've caused, if there's any and thanks for all the free lunches. I'll see you again I hope...

You guys will definitely be missed. It's been great working at Stephen Mclarens, although it's a lil' boring at times. Goodbye people and see ya!!!!

Paycheck is in and it's quite an unexpected figure. Kaching kaching*

P/S: Surgery on coming Monday... I feel the fear... Ouch*

2007-04-10T09:10:00.000+08:00

I thought this was quite funny, so here goes...

Yesterday, while in the midst of a conversation with the dearest during work... my handphone rang and this person R called.

Me: Eh dear... wait ah, someone's calling (picked up handphone)
Me: Hello, who's that?
R: Hello, this is BA office calling. May I know what class are you assigned to?
Me: You hold on arh... (picked up office phone).. eh dear, important call from school, talk later? (hangs up call)
Me: (Back to handphone) Hello, yes, may I know what's the problem?
R: I'm from TB 43, what's your class?
Me: Huh? TB 44? Who's that?
R: I'm Kenneth... (note: I thought R introduce himself as someone from BA office earlier on?)
Me: Kenneth? Which Kenneth? Kenneth who?
R: Kenneth ONG LA!!!
Me: Kenneth Ong? Which Kenneth Ong??
R: Your class that Kenneth Ong LARHHH...
Me: Ohhhh Kenneth!!!! But... you don't sound like Kenneth. The voice different.
R: Huh? Then who I sound like?
Me: You sound like Robert...
R: Hahahaha... YA LARHHHH... I ROBERT la....

Can you see how silly that Roberto is? Well, at least he cheered up my boring workday a little *grins* He's a bit too bored at work and so am I!!!!

Attachment is such a waste of MA TIME!!!!

2007-04-09T14:44:00.000+08:00

Today is a special day for this special someone in my special world. Confused? Need not be. That special person in my special world in none other my mummy dearest. It's her 48th and all I wanna do right now is this...

To mummy dearest,
A dedication of my heartfelt love for you

I know you can never read this but still, I'm gonna say it all.

I know I've been quite a disappointment, for you and for dad, especially from the start of 2007. I know you have never expected me to be what I am now and my actions are just so intolerable, to you it may seem. I know I've done things that you've never liked and disobeyed you by going against your wishes. Somehow, I want you to know that I never did them on purpose.

The many misunderstandings we had, the quarrels and the arguments, I know, have caused tremendous hurt to pierce through your heart. I know I can do nothing to make things better, to make it less painful for you, especially when I still insist on holding on to my own rights and choice. What I need you to know is, behind all the disobeying and misbehaving, I've never told myself not to love you. It's really against my wish to be rude to you. You're still that very important person in my life.

To you, it may seem like I've been really self-centered and all I care is my own well-being, but hey, no, it's definitely not true. I care and I wish that you'll be happy. I never wanted you to be sad and crying. But, what can I do but wish and hope for your blessings. You've been a tough pillar of support and I wish you'll always be.

And on this special day, all I want you to know is how dearly you're to me. I love you for everything you have given me, the love, the care and the concern. Nothing and no one can ever replace you for who you are. Happy birthday MUMMY. I wish you eternal happiness, good health and youth. I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/S: Hope you like the pressies from us (husband & 3 daughters). I chose it by the way *hehe*

2007-04-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

I need and I HAVE to say this. Not because of any influence from anything or any persons, it's just what I'm feeling now. I WANT him and I NEED him. Cos' no one understands me like how he does, no one know what kind of person I actually am, what kind of temper holds me from within and what to do just to carve that smile on my face. He's the only who loves me for me, and not for anything people think unworthy of. And that's basically why I'm in love with him. Happy belated 66th month-niversary dear. You know nothing's gonna change where we stand and what we are. Huggs*

Apparently, my grandfather hates staying in St.Lukes. I'm pretty glad that he's coming home by next week. Anyhows, it just better for him to be home, where the air smells nicer and warmer!!!! *grins*

This random remark came out from me just now after dinner. I wanna stay in the HOSTEL if I ever make it to the university after my final year. Not that I'm sick of home or any reason close to that, but it's just the desire to experience what hostel life is gonna be like; seeing family once a week, cooking your own meals, washing your own laundry, changing your bedsheets, living with a total stranger and making her your bestie yada yada yada. My final year's starting in a week, and I've made a promise to my loved ones that I'll work and try my best not to be distracted by less important stuffs and fight this war. I want to live with no regrets. I need to since I've already fallen once, I'm never going to fall again!!!

P/S: Okay!! That pic was 'kopped' from his blog. Cos' I can't upload new pics.. hehe*

2007-04-03T11:55:00.000+08:00

The events of the past few days...

1) Prata sessions with the lovable, with a new discover fetish - nasi goreng pattaya
2) Shopping with the lovable, bought a dress after 3 visits to the shop
3) MOS with the girlies and dennis
4) Getting irritated
5) Missed work cos' of terrible sore throat - went on a CBD bank tour with the lovable instead
6) Back to work today

I'm too lazy to go into the details cos' I'm still nursing my poor, suffering throat and my head is spinning like nothing. I wish work ends fast today, let time fly a lil' faster.

When's lunch? I'm hungry!!! Urgh*

Peektures will be up soon~

[edit] So many movies I wanna watch: TMNT, Because I said So, Meet the Robinsons, Freedom Writers, Stomp the Yard... so many... yet so little time... urgh!!!! [/edit]

2007-03-30T09:18:00.000+08:00

This week has got to be the busiest week of my internship. Was sent offsite to do some data entry in this place at Raffles Place. Client's Marina Bay Sands and if you haven't heard of them, let me brief you a lil'. Basically, they belong to the big big organisation in the US, Las Vegas Sands, the casino in Las Vegas. And they are here in Singapore to set up a casino in the upcoming Integrated Resort at Marina Bay.

The past few days has been really crazy for me. Placed in a dilemma between going for tuition and staying overtime to complete the data entry tasks assigned. The way Caucasians work is really NUTTY. They do things last minute and they go all out to complete what's not yet completed. When I say go all out, it refers to staying OT till the wee hours EVERYDAY and rushing and rushing their subordinates to meet deadlines. Their antics irritate me very much. Was disgusted by that stupid angmoh, who was really egoistic, selfish, demanding and definitely sacarstic. Which company will give their employees loads of free time in the afternoon and FORCE them to stay overtime to do more work? RIDICULOUS!!!!! Their system is not something I can adapt to. They live and work like humans have no other commitments but work. Damn!!!

Anyways, was supposed to be attached till today, but somehow, being really efficient and "diligent" enough to stay overtime EVERYDAY, we've completed all the necessary by yesterday. AND so, what's with the "not enough time to complete" nonsense? Urgh!!!!

Therefore, after all the hard work, I'm glad I'm back to where I'm supposed to be. Phew* And to compensate for the depriviation of my personal time, I am NOT gonna work hard today!!! I am a SLACKER for now!!!!!!!!!!

On a happier note, the dearest went to pick me up from work the other day when I worked till 10pm. Thanks baby. I know it when you're the best. Lurve love..

It's paycheck day today!! Yums!!!!!!!!!!!

I wanna go disturb the big sis... hahahaha... bye peeps!!!

2007-03-23T13:50:00.000+08:00

It's really true when you hang out with people you meet EVERYDAY (minus the weekends), you tend to find some traits in them that you personally dislike. Sometimes, these traits that they have tend to be so bad that it affects and irritate the HELL out of you.

Case 1:
I was asked to go out for lunch and got outcasted by the person who asked me out. Why bother to ask me along if you have the idea of casting me off. I do not appreciate such antics from you, not at all.

Case 2:
If that direct line is supposedly mine, and I was in the midst of a conversation, it is definitely rude of you to ask me to put down the call, just because you need to call someone. Hello? Like you're the only one who needs a phone huh? I thought I have been really generous to let out a bigger table for you and this is the kind of attitude I get from you. EXTREME RUDENESS!!!

Case 3:
I have personally space even if I'm just an intern. Doesn't mean you are a full-timer you have the rights to eavesdrop on people. Can you at least show minimal respect to people. We're not talking about who is more or less senior here, but basic human rights and courtesy.

Not that I have to whine about all these, but it's true. Some people just don't know their limits!!!! Tsk tsk* Maybe I should feel lucky that at least the peeps in my department are more accomodating in that sense.

On a happier note, spent the morning doing this layout. Not that I'm slacking or anything like that, but cos' I've completed what I am supposed to do and the fact that there's no outstanding tasks for completion, thus, the excess time to do personal stuffs.

LO visited the company and phew* everything went on just fine. Everyone's happy; My superiors are, my LO is and thus, I am happy.

Maybe I should consider lunching with my department once I come back from offsite. Should I? Yes? Hmmm... sounds pretty much like a good idea.
TGIF!!!

2007-03-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

The song lyrics below is from Music and Lyrics movie OST. There you go peeps...

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em' again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

Anyone has this song?????? Pleaseeeeeeee

2007-03-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

Just an overdue update...

the love number 1

the love number 2

Donuts love... <3

2007-03-19T13:40:00.000+08:00

Satisfied my fishball kway teow soup craving during lunch *Slurp* I mean, it's not easy to find cheap and deelicious food in the suburbs of CDB yeah? $2, that's all you need for lunch. That makes me a very pleased girl *Grins*

Heard that me and kenneth, another intern from NP will be attached out to this other company to do data-entry work. What the!!!??? I don't even belong to ACC department and I know nuts about accounts, why send me? Will be attached out for 5 days I think and I'm not ready for the debits and credits. I'm comfortable as a corporate secretary. I don't need more exposure!!! Irritated? YES!!! And they better pay me extra for this, like they will...

It's just a bad way to start a monday with unrelated colleagues asking me to do this do that, go here go there. Hello???? I am not your subordinate, neither do I report to you. So, don't order and push me around as you wish!! NO!! I may be a student, an intern, but that doesn't make me your personal slave. If you want me to run shit for you, pay me you irritating boots-licking woman!!! Neh neh neh!!!

Better get back to work. It's time...

2007-03-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

Let's summarise my weekend in short sentences...

- Music and Lyrics with the beloved yesterday. I don't know how I should rate the movie, but it was nice. The songs are nice, meaningful and sweeta!!! Drew Barrymore acted a lil' too psychotic in the movie though.

- Visited this new mall at Clarke Quay and that place is really beautiful now compared to the last time I went there, which was so so so long ago. The lights really brightened up the place and make it an ideal night spot.

- Dinner at fort canning. Romantic.. it's been so long since we had this right honey? *smile*

- Major boo boo of the day, I tore my pants while shopping for his keyboards... Urgh** It was a bad idea to go into Best Denki!!!!!! Then I have to go around hunting for something to replace the spoilt one!!! *scream* Totally spoil my weekend... but it's okay. At least I found something nice.

Okay, this is random. I'm tired and I have to talk to him. So, bye peeps.

[/edit]: and the beloved sang this - "you can't stop me... i'm the gingerbread man" damn cute... i love you honey i do...

2007-03-13T17:31:00.000+08:00

Out of boredom, I decided to surf the net, and after a random click, see what I found...

Sagittarians on 13 March 2007

Your imagination is ready for inspiration, so art and music hold a lot of appeal.

Trying to figure out what's really going on in someone else's head is a fool's game. And you're no a fool -- not by a long shot. So stop dwelling, let it go and do something more constructive with your time.

How true??? VERY!

2007-03-13T08:49:00.000+08:00

I have every right to be DISAPPOINTED, SUSPICIOUS and DOWN. And now, that's how I'm feeling. What kind of life am I leading now? *no comments*

2007-03-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

To readers, never mind about the lyrics that I've put up. They are 2 very nice songs I've heard of and I just want to put them up. Sometimes, songs speak stories of life. VERY TRUE stories. Songs can reflect reality. Kudos to songwriters who can actually write out reality in the form of songs. They must have great understanding on how living is like.

Anyways, just an update on my Dental Checkup last Friday. Did a pulpectomy treatment on one of my teeth and scheduled a day surgery on 16th April. Will be extracting 4 teeths altogether - 1 wisdom and 3 funny teeth. According to the dentist, funny teeth will create problems for your other teeth, so if you have them, GET THEM REMOVED!!!

Have been really emotional recently, something major happened in the family. But everything's under control, I hope. Not gonna mention what happened, but it got everyone worried sick and frustrated.

Anyways, big sis went to Guangzhou, China last Saturday. Will be back this Friday or Saturday I think. Better look out and if you can get me anything from there!!! UNDERSTAND?

I feel MOODY I don't know why. Somehow 2007 hasn't been very smooth-sailing for me. Urgh*

2007-03-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feelings takin control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
Just so you know

It's gettin hard to
Be around you
There's so much I can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away

This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why I've waited so long
Lookin back I realize it was always there to be spoken

Now I'm waitin here
Been waitin here
Just so you know

2007-03-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too

You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight

Feel somethin happenin
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact

Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside

Do you feel somethin happenin?
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal

If you know how to touch a girl
Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
Ooh I'll be givin all my love to you

2007-03-07T08:48:00.000+08:00

I had a really long rest last night, after so long. Cos' tuition was cancelled, so reached home pretty early. Initial thought was to go home, slack on the sofa, eat the chinese new year goodies and watch teevee. But but but, the stupid pain has to change my entire perfect plan. I don't know what's causing the pain cos' when I visited the dentist last friday, he told me there was NOTHING WRONG with my teeth. Maybe the old fill-ups I did long time ago is giving me the problem. Another possibility could be my wisdom tooth and he suggests me going for a wisdom tooth extraction surgery. Was referred to National Dental Centre this coming friday for my routine check and what big-sis told me makes my hair stands. She says the dentists there are really rough and it's gonna be painful. Oh god!!! I'm freaking out.

Till now, the pain is still there. It's never gone. I can't eat my favourite food cos' I can't bite. I can't talk much cos' when I move my mouth, my tooth aches even more. And the fact that eating and talking are two of my very much enjoyed activities, I can do none now!!! Urgh!!!

Apologies to the dearest for my foul temper. Must be the pain heating me up from inside. Sorry for the irritated tone. Love me still alrights? I love you dear.

Enough of whining.. it's time I get back to work. Pain Pain go away... never come another day... BOO the pain!!! hahahaha

I miss my dearest...

2007-03-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do is think of you

I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong

And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire Through the rain
I believe Cause there’s nothing I can't bear

Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do is think of you

I love YOU honey. Without you, life's nothing. Let's cross all obstacles togther, now and forever. Happy 65th monthniversary.

P/S: Sorry no picture of my dearest cos' updating using company's notebook.

2007-03-05T16:34:00.000+08:00

Popularity refers to the state of being widely admired, accepted, or sought after.

The popularity philosophy has resulted in many unwanted politics and I have witnessed many of such cases. People fight and go all out just so to be well-liked by many. Being popular becomes their top most piority that most of them often neglect the fact that they have been hurting the beings around them in one way or another.

Backstabbing and betrayal becomes a common move towards gaining popularity. Regardless of whether the party is their closest pals, they choose to betray. Slowly, they transform themselves to 2-faced hypocrites that are nasty and hateful. Because they want the best of 2 worlds, so, they choose to betray their closest, YET remain their closest. Thus, what you see on their faces are like fake, pretentious masks. What I respect in them is the fact that they can face their closest without feeling a single tinge of guilt. They pretend that they are faithful to their closest and has never done anything to let them down.

Popularity becomes so important to them that their friends turn into their competitors. They fight to stand out among their friends, physically and mentally. They want to look and think better than their so-called besties. What logic is it? Aren't the bestest friends supposed to be proud of what each of them are? To be proud of their character and strengths? It doesn't sound very logical when your friends detest you for being better-off than them in certain aspects.

The thing is after all they have had done, in the imaginary world of theirs, they think they are the happiest creatures around. They believed they have everything they wanted, and people all love them. Yet, the upsetting truth is, they are the saddest because eventually, all that they have gained through their despicable acts will then vanish and they will end up with nothing...

Therefore, word of advice, do not hurt anyone. NEVER do that. You'll be the eventual loser. Get a life!!!

2007-03-02T11:01:00.000+08:00

I am so bored at work today that I've decided to send out this mail to the dearest.. interesting.. hahahaha

Hi Mister,

Your darling is in pain today. The terrible toothache is killing her, so she decided to take a half day leave to visit the dentist. As such, please be reminded to treat her with loads of care and love, cos' this is one of the many remedies to ease her pain. What she needs now is not medication, but more importantly hugs from you. Thus, please be reall kind to give her the tightest hugs one can ever give. She will be very appreciative of that.

Also, please note that she must eat really soft food right now, sardine murtabak sounds like a good choice. So, please bring her out tonight to feed her that.

Should you have any enquires about your darling's needs and issues concerning her, please do not hesitate to mail, call or message me at ********.

Thanks for your attention.

Yours sincerely

Okay, I know, it's crappy!!! Laugh people!!!

2007-03-01T15:34:00.000+08:00

Day 1 at internship

Orientation was okay. Got to know the structure of the company. Stephen McLarens Consultant Pte Ltd, located at one of the restored shophouses in Cantonment Road. The company deals with mainly Accounts and Taxation. It's like a replica of IRAS, but a smaller scale one.

Was assigned to the Corp Secretarial department. Main job scope: To compile Annual General Meetings' reminders and documents and to assist my superior in menial stuffs like typing, printing yadayadayada...

Got close to this girl Yue Ying, also an intern from NP, ACC. Sweetgirl she is.

Day 3

Lunched with the big and lady bosses at this clubhouse in Cantonment. The "zi-char" was superly delicious. Took the lunch date as an opportunity to mingle with my fellow colleagues. Talked to the lady boss Mrs Leong. She's nice only when she's not doing work cos' when she works, she's overly serious. Big boss Mr Leong looks pretty fatherly. Exchanged smiles with him and introduced myself to him. Very friendly man indeed.

Day 4&5

Day 4 was Kat's birthday and also her ROM day. Congrats babe, say bye to singlehood *grins* Day 5 was Sally's birthday. Notice that Kat and Sally's birthday is only a day away, if you ignore the year that is.

Day 6 (which is TODAY)

Moved from level 4 to level 3 cos' new permanent staffs are coming in. Pauline, new member to corp sect, looks pretty nice. Lunched with tax department and accounts department colleagues. This guy in tax department is very funny, thus, lunch is GOOD!!!

Now that I've changed seats, surfing the net and sending personal emails became increasingly convenient. The only boo boo is that I have to frequently climb to level 4 since most of the documents I need for my tasks are in corp sect.

Okay, enough about my internship...

Haven't been meeting the dearest these few days, cos' of internship and tuition. Sorry dear, we'll find time to meet? It's friday tmr, maybe it's good for meeting up? We'll see how? Yes?? I miss you aplenty if you must know.

On the other hand, meet-ups with eileen is becoming more frequent. I guess it's because we stay so near to each other, meeting up late is no issue at all. Poor girl just lost her mobile phone the other day when we went vivo for shopping. She's sad, I know. Cheer up alrights? You can always get a new one once you've saved enough moolah!!!

ROYALTIES!!! FIND ONE DAY TO MEET PLEASE... IT'S BEEN TOO LONG. THE LAST WAS START OF FEB and NOW'S MARCH!!! DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT OKAY??? AND VELDA CHUA, YOU'D BETTER CONCENTRATE ON YOUR REVISION YOU UNDERSTAND?? hahahahahahaha

Alrighty, I had better get back to my AGMs. Just taking this chance to rest my eyes. Can't stand looking at the PC the entire day. Good day PEOPLE!!!

Love
Guangxian

2007-02-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

The thought of having my internship from 830am to 615pm followed by tuition turns me off totally. My holidays, my plans, my personal time, all screwed up. I've tried making adjustments, but apparently I failed. Guess the only enjoyable days to look forward now are my Saturdays. And who knows, it may not be as wonderful as it may seem.

I can't help but complain about what my life's gonna be like for the next 1 and a half month. Internship came at the wrong time, or maybe it came at the right? *Shrugs*

Making choices and one-sided thoughts gives me headaches. Sometimes I wish my mind stops thinking about things it should have been, stop thinking about what I know I can't change, what I know I can't decide. Obviously, my mind don't function the way I type. It's no surprise my blood pressure's rising.

I need Royalties' and EK therapy!! Girls!!! Where are you all??? I need you!!!! *grins*

Another boring internship day tomorrow. Weekends, draw nearer!!!

2007-02-20T12:39:00.000+08:00

I know I've been neglecting my blog a lil' too much. The exams has tied me up too tightly. Time is simply not enough. Now that exams are finished, I believe that my blog will be better taken care of... i hope. Heh!!

Anyways, enough of crapping. Now, all's good except for one thing. Not gonna mention it but yeah, let's hope things remains like that, if not better. Post exams activities has been really exciting so far. Saturday was Chinese New Year's eve and it also marks the start of a new relationship... Saiful's mum got hitched!!! Congrats auntie. Attended the celebration at his place which was just 10 mins walk away from mine. First time attending a malay wedding and this auntie there was confused making out whether it's me or rosz the malay one. She's funny. A pity that I can't stay long cos' of the family reunion dinner.

Chinese new year this year was pretty much the same as previous years. Just that the kids are growing bigger, the boys better looking and the girls prettier. Ate alot, drink alot, steamboat alot... Chinese new year is nothing special for me, cos' it's just more like a big family gathering..

Just Follow Law with the dearest last night. The show wasn't that nice afterall. I'll give it 2 out of 5 popcorns. It's funny at certain parts and nonsensical at the others. However, the companionship was awesome. One of the most wonderful dates after so long? Yes? I love you dear. I really do. No doubt about it.

This's the ONE I love

Attachment on Thursday. Excited? Nah!!! I don't wanna work!!! I want my HOLIDAYS!!!! Urgh!!! Gotta run... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALLL!!!!

2007-02-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

It's that time of the month again... ... Happy 64th months!!!!

Is the count gonna stop? Hell NO!!!!! Love love...

2007-02-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

Things are still not changing for the better, but still, some wonderful events happened the past week. Peektures loading... ...

Had class dinner with my polymates last Friday(26/01). Surprisingly, it turned out pretty well, as in, I got to have really nice and hilarious convos with some of those classmates I never had chance to hang out with. It's sad that the semester is ending and we are going onto our electives, meaning, separate classes. Boo!!!! Despite that, our friendship still stands =)

Saturday (27/1) was another really fantastic date with the loveliest. It's amazing how he's stood by me despite the obstacles ahead. Precious one, I can only say, you mean everything to me and I will stand strong just for you. Huggs!!!!

Celebrated Eileen's 21st birthday yesterday. First time after 4 years? Nothing can describe that special bond between us. It's just marvellous that everything is back to normal. Happy birthday PIG!!!! Love love.

P/S: Note that me and eileen's wearing the same colour. It was pure conincidence. It WASN'T planned at all. *giggles* Blue's the new craze!!!!

2007-01-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

Ow, ow, twisted and deceitful
All those two-faced people
taking me for some kind of fool

Ow, ow, pretending to be so nice
Let me give you my advice
I don't need you, ooh

Friends in disguise,
dressed up in lies
it's an act that you're playing

Ow, ow, first you recognize me
Then you criticize me, what's goin' on

Stop your bitchin' 'cos you're so sad
Bitchin' behind my back
Honey, I don't need that
So kick it to the curb because I heard you're two-faced
Tryin' to get in my place
Work too hard to make mistakes
So stop your bitchin' on me

Ow, ow, they're so narrow-minded
Truth is so one-sided they're just counterfeits
Ow, ow, hot and cold you're blowing
Keep them walls closed and who are you trying to kid, eh

Two-faced people are so shallow
put yourself in my place

Ow, ow, the fairy tales you're spinning
Sounding so convincing but I'm at a loss

Poison words are spoken
My faith in you is broken but I'll make it on my own

Stop this hypocrisy
You're criticizing me 'cos I don't wanna be
With two-faced people, yeah

2007-01-22T19:29:00.000+08:00

In short, I thank all who has done a part in making my life a lil' better, especially the precious one. Thanks for the unconditional love and understanding for everything. I am more certain about what I want for my future. I love you.

Saturday was one of the many many wonderful dates precious has spent with me. Huggs dear!!!!

Girls day out with the double Es. Shopping together was really fun yesterday - similar pumps and long dressing room sessions. Love love love.... i likeeeeeee..... let's do it again!!!!!!!!!!!!! 29th? okie? yes? no?

The double Es and yours TRULY!

I totally dig this peekture. RoaR!!!!!!!

Thanks all for the wonderful weekend!!!!!!!!!

School was pretty slacked today and the playful me joked with Roberto. Funny!!! Don't know what got into me. Shan't mentioned what I did. Hee*

Class lunch on friday... excited? Yes but of cos!!!!

2007-01-20T11:45:00.000+08:00

After that pretty dull period of my life, it's time to add some colours to my life. This is gonna be a really colourful picture entry. Pictures are way overdued. Prepare for the eye feast. Ready? GO!

New Year's eve

19th Jan 2007 (in school and out with dear)

HE TOOK ALL THESE!!! =)

I love...hee*

P/S: Readers will be seeing my hair half tied up cos my new hair cut can only fit this style. Boo!! I want my long hair back!!!!!

2007-01-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

When the world turns against X, X realised he or she can only see darkness. No more anticipation to find out what's going to happen ahead, no more strength to move, no more energy to even adjust his or her life back to proper.

When the world turns against X, whatever he or she does, it just doesn't seem right. It's like his or her actions ended up irritating another, and that every step X moves to is a wrong move.

When the world turns against X, he or she will always try to do certain things just to make sure that people around him or her is happy with whatever he or she is doing. X will try to make the world happy for the people around him or her so that X do not end up being casted out.

When the world turns against X, he or she starts feeling lost. Initially X starts to solve problems him or herself. But, when the problem gets worse just because of his or her inability to satisfy others, he or she gives up. And when he or she gives up, it really means giving up hope.

When the world turns against X, he or she realised it's happier being alone, happier to live in solace and happier to ignore whatever's that happening around. When X is alone, he or she does not feel pressured by the people other him or her. X feels relax.

And so if you were X, what will you do?

2007-01-16T23:24:00.000+08:00

It's been 3 consecutive days already and still things are not changing for the better.

Situation: The war is still very much heated and the tension is strong. It's like one more wrong move will send me to hell.

As much as you want life to be the way you want it to be, I want my life to be the one I WANT. So much for asking for understanding, I don't see a minimum bit coming from you. I'm trying hard on my part to make 2 worlds happy, but, like I've said, it's not easy. One party will always be happier than the other and this is the norm in today's world. It's not like we are an exception. Why is it so hard for you guys to understand what I'm getting at?

You say that you've been placing expectations on me, and I've let you down in a way. Please, I've never asked for you to look so highly on me. NEVER. Somehow, I'd rather such complicated expectations were never set for me to fulfil. It's tough and it's painful.

My heart aches and it's not because of myself. I'm standing at crossroads and thinking hard on which way I wanna go. I tell myself whichever way I move to, I'll never regret and I will NEVER. Even if I did, I'll take the responsibility.

It's like even a simple convo can turn into an argument. I can't even communicate with you anymore. It's like when everything's good and dandy, I am considered the GEM. Now that I'm asking for something I really want, something I will never regret asking for, it's wrong!!! Tell me whether this is fair? I don't even think so!!!

I became a cruel and sinful culprit. The one who has caused the chaos and brought pain to everyone. Call me the sinner, a stubborn one too. It's hard for me to change what I have decided. I don't wanna regret. I want to make a choice of my OWN, not YOURS. I want to do it MY way, not YOURS.

My heart tells me I'm disappointed. Am I?

2007-01-15T19:17:00.000+08:00

It's just that little understanding that I'm asking!! Do you have to be so resistant? Everything's about you you you and YOU!!! You claim that I'm selfish, but let me tell you, you ARE SELFISH TOO FREAKING SELFISH!!! You can't accept and you force people to go YOUR way. You don't like and you FORCE people to listen to what you say!!! You are still that stubborn one who only cares about YOUR OWN HAPPINESS!!! So, does it even matter if I am HAPPY? I don't think you even care!!!

DAMN THIS PLACE!!!! WHERE ARE MY HUMAN RIGHTS???? DON'T FORCE ME ANYMORE!!! COS' YOU CAN'T AND YOU WON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've never asked for anything so BADLY... it's just this ONE time and YOU CAN't EVEN GRANT IT!!!

2007-01-14T18:15:00.000+08:00

So... the BIG secret is out and as expected, it turned out to be really BAD!! The convo was one filled with irritatedness, anger, resistance and coldness. I have nothing else to say till I get some understanding... so yup... silence shall be my solace.